here and there

I hate when people try to bring me down. why is it that som people try their hardest to make other people feel badly? it's not nice.

stomach hurts.
wishing maine was closer to new york right now. 4 years in maine this august...by have i had good times, learned life lessons, grown, matured, grained weight, lost weight, gained weight, lost tonsils, gained a bunny and a wonderful boyfriend who is my best friend, lost great grandparents, got a promotion and a boss who is great. friends, memories, new experiences...

new york...sometimes just a memory. mostly just a memory. a phone call away, an 8 hour drive, a 4 day trip minimum, family. small town USA. oh to go back in time, i'd freee frame senior year of high school. ski instructing, close friends, close family, jeff came with me to prom, wonderful times, the nice house, windchimes, taking off during studyhalls, not a care in the world. those were the days.

sacrifices

Feeling like things are improving. So quickly you can get in over your head. everyone is leaving. the end of an era. the beginning of new friendships. stress inc, overtime inc., debt dec., quality time ?, contact hours dec.

it's a give and take. sacrifices which will hopefully pay off.

time will tell.
need to rest my head(ache)

feeling blah and holding.
treading water seems to me the most used phrase lately.
yet...surviving and
trying.

my day

today is one of my days off. i always feel like i need to spend them wisely, yet research how i am going to spend it for far too long and am forced to make a decision. today i took the ferry and biked around an island in Maine. it wasn't a strenuous ride, but quite quaint. i definitely could feel the results of the physical activity and quickly realized how out of shape i have become over the last 4 to 6 years. but let's focus on the positive; it was a beautiful day and i enjoyed it, while being healthy.

it's come to the part of the day where i try to clean the loft and reorganize the odds and ends that make up our life. good luck me.

realizations

i just realized that i think i have a booty. if you are running on the treadmill and can feel your butt...i think that means you are booty-licious. damn!

and CC advances might be evil, but necessary.

every morning is the start of a brand new day

smile. breath. breath. breath.

everything starts today.

life is full of chanllenges that only make us stronger if we choose to battle on. sometimes we have choices. sometimes our fights are our destiny.

must keep swimming. must keep swimming.