update

it's been far too long and far too many things have occurred to blog about. homework is a sea of times new roman letters, size 12 font, swirling through my brain and pouring out my eyes. i have to take a break from it to let it soak in.

i miss having a paycheck, i think i've said that. i miss even looking forward to the paycheck, seemed to get me through the 2week block. now i drive and drive and gas up and nothing. my internship has started and is kickin up speed. so much so that i wonder how i will accomplish everything.

i have punk rock hair, says dre. i feel like i am wearing a wig. i don't recognize myself in storefront windows, yet the reflection is mine. i like change, but it'll take a few days to get used to bangs and black, straight hair. i call it my 29th year crisis. almost...

i wish i were still kickboxing with my trainer. i think i need to paint. i have an idea for my next piece...it'll have a johnny cash meets johnny thunder feel.

Dear 20 year old self...

Dear 20 year old self,

What would I do differently? Nothing really. You really learn best from experience, sorry, but that won't change.

Try not to cry so easily or worry what other people think.

Phrases you will become quite familiar with:
"Can I get that in writing?"
"I'm sorry you feel that way."
"This too shall pass."

Don't drink gin. Don't move out of state for a 50 cent pay raise. And the 10% discount isn't worth opening another credit card.

Follow your heart and your gut. And give second chances, but thirds.

And lastly, the dishes can wait. Have fun!