Endings and beginnings

Endings: Thesis is almost done...within the week.  Graduation is less than a month away!
Beginnings: Last Tuesday I was offered a full-time job after I graduate in May, so happy!
In other news: 
My wonderful boyfriend Andre surprised my with a beautiful bouquet of tulips for landing a job, working hard and just because he loves me!  When I got out of the library at midnight (Wednesday) he gave them to me!  :) ...Thank You!  They are lovely and make me smile!

I also got to have lunch with an old friend and BFF (who is trying to make it on Broadway) who was in town - Thai food, stories of past adventures and sharing of artwork.

me

It's all about choices...

and today I choose me. I also choose to not accept other people's guilt. I have enough on my plate and spinning in my head, I don't need anyone else's opinions of me or my actions. It's taken a long time for me to feel ok with that statement and I want to continue to feel ok with that. sometimes saying no to you means saying yes to me and my needs. I hope my friends can understand that and if they can't right now, I hope one day they might be able to and might look back and think, wow, I didn't really need to add that to her plate.

update

it's been far too long and far too many things have occurred to blog about. homework is a sea of times new roman letters, size 12 font, swirling through my brain and pouring out my eyes. i have to take a break from it to let it soak in.

i miss having a paycheck, i think i've said that. i miss even looking forward to the paycheck, seemed to get me through the 2week block. now i drive and drive and gas up and nothing. my internship has started and is kickin up speed. so much so that i wonder how i will accomplish everything.

i have punk rock hair, says dre. i feel like i am wearing a wig. i don't recognize myself in storefront windows, yet the reflection is mine. i like change, but it'll take a few days to get used to bangs and black, straight hair. i call it my 29th year crisis. almost...

i wish i were still kickboxing with my trainer. i think i need to paint. i have an idea for my next piece...it'll have a johnny cash meets johnny thunder feel.

This is it.

This is it.

Everything has been building up to this very moment since last fall when I started looking at graduate programs. I don't know if I ever thought this day would come. Maybe I thought I would never do anything with my BA in art, or maybe I was scared to even think it. To think I could be happy and be getting paid for it. Don't get me wrong, my non-art jobs were happy sometimes, learning experiences sometimes and sometimes I made them artsy to satisfy my hunger. Either way, they ave made me what I am today, whatever that is :)

Today I packed up my new LL Bean backpack with Theories of Art therapy, The DSM IV, The DSM Made Easy and The Art therapist's Primer...a new chapter begins. I have opted to make my lunch in the morning and paint my nails instead. I hate soggy sandwiches. I cleaned out my desk, picked out my clothes and realized I missed Orientation. Sad, yet I had inquired multiple times and will not bring this guilt with me to school tomorrow. Three hours of ice breakers is forgivable i think.

With an empty tank of gas and a new backpack filled with lunch and large books, I shall head off to Pittsford, NY and start my next adventure into he semi-known, college student...ahem, graduate student. Thought of the many first days and last days of school this evening. My dad and I used to go to McDonald's and I would order a "greasy thing" aka hash brown and some sort of breakfast and we would sit outside on the round picnic tables and I would fret about being too early or late and pace a bit, while my dad told me I should eat before it's time to leave. No McDonald's tradition tomorrow, but my dad and I both agreed that's a good thing. Strata in the morning, homemade by yours truly today, while I had no idea Orientation was going on. At least I know what's for breakfast... I think I shall get Dre to make the coffee tomorrow as I seemed to have problems forgetting the coffee part of it, oh well, hot water anyone?

crunch time!

Found myself restless last night and unable to sleep consecutive periods of time. Taking advantage of the day by cleaning, yes actually cleaning, unpacking, organizing and possibly using a screwdriver...just call me Ms fix it.

Pleased with my progress and looking forward to getting things in running order for he school year. got lost in the underground tunnels yesterday, oddly enough I thought I was headed to the pool...reminds me of the joke kids used to play on Freshman in High School.

My brother and I devoured some Abbott's custards last night, complete with a waffle bowl! mmm...

So much to do...but with a clear head we'll take it one box at a time. :)