Calling all artists...

you know you hit a certain level of addiction when you have an amazing experience and think..."i need to go home right now and blog this!"

i hit that level on Saturday and if I hadn't already had plans, I would have been doing just that, running right home to blog. It all began Friday after my run. I took a quick jaunt around the neighborhood; it felt good; 45minutes later, I was making myself a vegetarian burrito and reading the local free paper. Calling all artists...

Calling all artists... I want to do this. I want to try. So I immediately started planning my project idea, which turned into a 2 hour nap on our newly acquired couch (thanks Mimi). Note to self: no project planning on the couch. I quickly started trying to make up for lost time, considering my art project needed to be submitted for entry and approval in less than 48 hours. nice. I have always enjoyed working under pressure. While trying my hand at watercolor, I realized although I could successfully finish this piece, I would need more time.

Saturday was a sea of photo editing, cropping, and running around town. Enlarging photos, matting, naming and framing with an occasional snack. 5:38pm I ran into the High Falls Gallery where I went to enter my submissions. Since they close at 6pm, I wasn't doing too bad! I was nauseous all day, uncertain if my work would be selected. As I watched the words roll of the woman's tongue, these are very good and you have very good prices, a sigh of relief.

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I have realized that waiting to be notified of selection into an art exhibition, entry into art school or being in a critique is my equivalent to a job interview. Many people close to me are interviewing right now. I have a new appreciation for the stress they must be under. I felt like my entire being, who i was, was being judged. And the worst part is that you know that you are giving your best and sometimes you don't get the bone.

But this time, I got the bone! Opening Reception of "Contrast" September 26 - High Falls Art Gallery, Rochester, NY. 3 pieces, one me.

crunch time!

Found myself restless last night and unable to sleep consecutive periods of time. Taking advantage of the day by cleaning, yes actually cleaning, unpacking, organizing and possibly using a screwdriver...just call me Ms fix it.

Pleased with my progress and looking forward to getting things in running order for he school year. got lost in the underground tunnels yesterday, oddly enough I thought I was headed to the pool...reminds me of the joke kids used to play on Freshman in High School.

My brother and I devoured some Abbott's custards last night, complete with a waffle bowl! mmm...

So much to do...but with a clear head we'll take it one box at a time. :)

yesterday was a wash....literally

today is here.

yesterday was full of surprises and stress. i handled it better than usual, but was not impressed by the day overall. First, my phone crapped out and when you have a smart phone, that's like someone blind folding you and saying here's the world, go at it! Fumbled around until the evening hours, disconnected from the world i once knew and most of the people i know and love. i also lacked the use of my phone/gps function...ouch!

my friend tried to cheer me up by promising a drink and lunch, which was lovely, but i proceeded to leave it on the roof of my car when i drove away, unknowing until the late evening.

to save money, my friend offered up his laundry at his new apartment. excited to be chill and enjo free laundry i took him up on it, as he was going out anyway. after 2 loads, on the 3rd, i hear a bell ringing...the doorbell. the maintenance-looking man who is apparently the neighbor informed me of the obscene amounts of water outside in the hall and was i aware of it? why no, i was not. thank you for letting me know, i'm doing laundry, do you think it could be that??? My friend took the new moat he had to cross over to enter his brand new apartment quite well. I felt awfull and the landlord wasn't taking calls. come to find out it was hooked up wrong and not my fault. still feel awful about it, but at least it wasn't IN his apartment.

starting a diet today, not for weight-loss, for feeling better, nervous, it will be hard, i've done it before and it is very restricting, but my body might feel better. great...no sugar, condiments, yeast, wheat, or alcohol...or fruit...sounds fun huh!

less than 2 weeks...

Less than 2 weeks until classes and my excitement is laced with nerves and tears. First visit to Naz as a resident of NY, well not according to the DMV, but as far as the postal service is concerned, we live in NYState.

You can accomplish a lot when you are organized. I got my books, went to Financial Aid and they will reimburse me next week, met my new boss, took care of my parking, security keychain and student ID card. Can I tell you how weird it is to have a student ID card again. I am excied about the discounts at movies, events, etc, even if it is only a few dollars. I introduce myself as a graduate student, from Maine. My prior self was from NY, upstate, not NYC, and I worked for the Federal Government.

enjoying Rochester, but things are quiet at night, even in the daytime. I guess I could put music on or soething, but it's not the same. *miss you* meeting some nice people and might join a group of girls who enjoy community service and organizing events. also interested in an art co-op! Of course classes and my grad assistanceship comes first. So some of these ideas might have to wait a semester.

week 1 in my new hometown

sometimes changes can be so overwhelming you don't know where to begin, even when the goodbyes are done the focus is still in the past. seeing all of your possessions in monotone cardboard boxes of varying sizes makes you wonder, what's inside? do I need that anymore, since I have been functioning without it for days, and finally where's the match?! i think i said that numerous times this move, where's the match? even after giving away our couch, TV, and grill, among other last minute dismissals, there was still too much for the U-haul. I knew it wouldn't be big enough when we ordered it. Sometimes it sucks to be right :)

currently co-habitating with ants. at least they know enough not to go into he bedroom. apparently they like the raid ant traps, possibly have built up a sort of immunity or acquired taste for it, however they are less numerous, yet even upsetting.

I have been sharing a bed with a "Bear," a giant bear that Dre won for me at Old Orchard Beach, complete with sand. I assuming it's him, as I wake up in a small pile of it each morning. If it's coming from me, we've got problems.

3 weeks until classes begin. I still need to setup my parking, ID card, graduate assistance-ship and safety key chain. A trip to school is in order this week!

must go be productive, not just creatively, but physically.

Duchess

Duchess...our bunny girl...has a new home.

Last night, Sheila came to pick her up in a torrential downpour. Duchess and I played a lot this week and we spoiled her with treats and fresh veggies. Every time I looked at her I cried, a few times uncontrollably. Last night I held it together until the front door closed and then head buried in Dre's shirt, I made a snot rag out of his polo. Duchess will be living with 12 other bunny-sisters and brothers. She will be spoiled rotten, as Sheila has invested in heated water dishes and she will get to run around all the time without any cage-time. I couldn't ask for a better person to adopt her :) I knew Sheila would be a great when she sent me photos of her bunnies and where Duchess would be living. She even promised to send me photos of Duchess, just as soon as she takes them :) Sheila even offered for us to visit if we like. She's perfect!

Changes...
I will post photos soon. Duchess we will always love you, even if you live somewhere else.

Dear 20 year old self...

Dear 20 year old self,

What would I do differently? Nothing really. You really learn best from experience, sorry, but that won't change.

Try not to cry so easily or worry what other people think.

Phrases you will become quite familiar with:
"Can I get that in writing?"
"I'm sorry you feel that way."
"This too shall pass."

Don't drink gin. Don't move out of state for a 50 cent pay raise. And the 10% discount isn't worth opening another credit card.

Follow your heart and your gut. And give second chances, but thirds.

And lastly, the dishes can wait. Have fun!

Tomorrow

Tomorrow. Full of expectations, smiles, promise, sunshine, new perspectives, hope, laughter, smoked salmon on an English muffin with chive cream cheese, capers and onion, and best of all you will be there.



My quote of the day: "Anyone can be interesting for 2 minutes."

Super Size Me

Finally watched Super Size Me directed by and starring Morgan Spurlock; couldn't help but make a trip to the Golden Arches to follow. I know it should have inspired me, but really, it made me crave the nuggets, the mystery meat. Surprisingly, the nuggets are only about 200 calories, so I didn't feel too guilty eating all 6. Although, I don't think I could eat Mccy D's everyday, let alone 3 times a day for a month, one box of chicken love won't put me over the edge. I would definitely recommend this documentary, followed by a Big Mac.

quick study break

so a quick study break from Psychology of Learning, my one class I am taking at USM. it was harder than anticipated and thus, much studying has been occurring, as of late. Tuesday is the final and I NEED a good grade. will be staked out here until they close at midnight, then tomorrow another camp out and Tuesday will consist of studying and then group studying before the exam.

frustrated, nervous, but i am learning and retaining information...it's a process.

back to it...